2 years ago, I was a drinking fool
This week 2 years ago (in 2007) I stopped drinking.
I woke up one morning and decided it was time to stop. I have not had a drink of alcohol since. Prior to that, I was a drinking fool! I was drinking like mad. I had gotten to the point in my drinking where I didn’t remember what happened for DAYS in my life.
I can definitely say I have an addictive personality. I’ve been addicted to every drug you can think of. (I’ve not used any narcotic drugs in almost 20 years) Drinking was my last real negative addiction. It slowly spiraled out of hand till one day in August 2007 I said to myself “Enough is enough”. I stopped.
The amazing part is that I don’t really miss it. Plus, I don’t have any issues being around others that are drinking or being around alcohol in general. I still like to go out and have a good time with friends, I drink juice or water and am still able to have a good time. I believe that I am able to do this because I have replaced my addiction to alcohol with a new addiction, focus and clarity.
Slowly over the course of the last two years, I’ve been getting a real sense of clarity back. Some serious focus and function. It’s almost intoxicating. I look back now and see what I have been missing. I really enjoy, and dare say, am addicted to this re-awakening of focus and function.
When I was drinking, I made some very poor decisions that affected me and those around me. Especially my immediate family. My thought processes were not 100% and I made bad choices. (no surprise there) But now, I have this crazy sense of clarity. I feel my choices and thought processes are great and am able to make great decisions about my life and those who rely on me. That is addicting.
I don’t regret my choice to stop, in fact I am glad that I did. Don’t worry, I am not on a soapbox saying “Drinking is bad” etc etc. It’s just not for me. If we hang out, feel free to imbibe, get inebriated, and get down right drunk. You’ll always have a designated driver with me. Hell, I’ll probably partake in the mayhem. But, I’ll do it sober.
PS To those that were negatively affected by me during my drinking and drunk phase of my life. I truly apologize.
